Fortitude

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Octavi Serra via Colossal.

To quote again from The Catholic Encyclopedia entry on despair, “the pusillanimous person has not so much relinquished trust in God, as he is unduly terrified at the spectacle of his own shortcomings or incapacity.”

I am sometimes unduly terrified by my shortcomings, and I do not trust God. But at my worst, for now, I remember that the one thing that I still control is whether or not I give in. And I go on.

From How to Write an Autobiographical Novel by Alexander Chee.